March 01, 2006
February 2006 In Review
My initial thought for February was that it was a complete wash. Just worthless. A waste of a month.
But then I realized that I was being the bug in the rug. You know that story? There was a bug that lived in the world's most beautiful Persian rug. Everywhere he turned, he saw his problems, his blocks, all of the things that were stopping him from being able to do exactly what he wants to do. But, if for just a second, he'd been taken up, to view the beautiful rug, he would have realized that all of his problems were the very things that created the beauty in the rug.
That was me in February, and really in January, too. Not looking at the rug.
I've had a lot of things seem like they've been just too hard to fight for, or not worth it, or whatever. I was doing the exact opposite of what the marble program was supposed to cure in me. I wasn't taking the steps neccessary to keep moving forward.
Identifying my problems.
Understanding my problems.
Identifying solutions to my problems.
Accomplishing the needed steps to complete the solutions.
It's like I'd been not breathing right or something, and now my lungs are full of air. Seeing the light, as it were.
I'd spent the last year viewing myself in one manner, in an almost passive manner, when in reality it was the very opposite. I'd seen myself as the person who followed, who learned, not realizing that I'd been the leader, and the one teaching. How odd. Normally when I stop and look at myself through others' eyes, I see myself in a negative light. But, finally, and for the first time really, I can see that I'm living my life the right way. That all of my beliefs hold true, and that my path is as important as I'd always felt it would be.
Good times ahead.
Posted by Schamberger at March 1, 2006 06:46 PM